Times heals all wounds ...

"Its has been said, `times heals all wounds`, I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone."
~~ Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy


That is what they said to me when I left to go home.
"Times will heals your wounds"
It was a very painful wound. Very very painful.
I suppose after three months ... the pain getting lessens.
I am missing you Mami. I missing you somehow terrible.
I remembered when we were young you always make us pancake for breakfast.
We call them `martabak` .. yes the same word as the Indian Pancake in town.
But your martabak is soft and sweet. 
Then you make us a pot of hot and sweet coffee.
Can you imagine the brain damage you have done to us for letting us drinking coffee at that young age? But we don't have any other drink. Well we have tea of course but we love your coffee, Mami.
Coffee with fresh homemade `martabak` is really a great treat.
I will do anything to get back to that moment.
We have lots of laughter. Lots of funny and silly conversations.
Mami, I misses you really bad. 
Don't worry I am doing well ... `times will heals all woulds`.
I just misses you. 

I wonder if someone out there misses their Mami badly as as I am.
If your Mami still here with you ... spend time with her.
Call her. Chit-chat with her.
Make the effort to visit her.
Write her a letter if she can read a letter.
I am going to write my Mami a letter ... today.



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