Be the Heroine

“Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.” ― Nora Ephron

I found this quote by accident this morning.

Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.

by Nora Ephron.

Who is Nora Ephron?

She is the director, screenwriter and producer of the 2009 movie, Julie & Julia.

One of my favorite movie. I still watch it once in awhile. 

Often dragging my darling hubby to watch it with me.

He knows I like Julia Child. I am a beginner collector of Julia Child cooking books.

Well ... be the heroine of your life, not the victim.

For a while ... since my Mami went away forever ... I have been feeling sorry for myself.

I cried now and then every time I think of my Mami.

I get mad now and then when I remembered I have to stay at HK International Airport for 8 hours before my next flight ... and knowing that she didn't waited for me. She has gone to be with the Lord since 05.55AM that morning, while I was on the my plane from Los Angeles. Don't you think it is an awful thing happened when you found out that your Mami didn't waited for you to say your final goodbye to her. It is not like she is coming back again next week or I can come back again next year and she will be there waiting for me. Just silence and memories.

So I was sorry for myself. 

I cried. I get mad at myself or may be at Mami.

I often asking, why? why? why? 

She is not there to answer.

I still can hear her calling me from upstairs. I still can hear her knocking my bedroom door.

I still can hear her voice everywhere ... and I cried again some more.

Sometimes .... I will be mad and asking why why why again.

But she has left us from earth to be with her Heavenly Father. 

Knowing that give me lots of comfort. Make me smile.

I should be the heroine of my life, not the victim.

A friend texted me the other day. Another friend was in the hospital. She was overdosed when she swallowed 62 pills. Not by accident, intentionally. She wanted to died. Why? Why? Why?

Here I am feeling sorry for myself and there is a friend who is fighting for her life.

Losing hope. Defeated. Wanting to died.

Doesn't she know she have a life to live on?

Two children needed her the most?

Why would she wants to take her life? Why? Why? Why?

Here I am feeling sorry for myself. While someone out there have more trouble the I am.

I would think my Mami is the one telling me, "Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim".

Today, I want to be the heroin of my life, not the victim.

I still missing you, Mami. I love you  and I still wish you are here with me.

“Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.” 
― Nora Ephron